If only I had the balls to just up and leave. I could live my life as a wild animal happily.
Occasionally things in life that hurt are the only things that can keep your heart from dipping just enough below the cold waters that would have you slowly suffocate, the lack of breathable air causing a panic in your chest that forces you to make rash decisions. I know but one thing in this moment in time, life is up. And down. And even when its up there is always that down just lingering and waiting to jump when it knows you weakest. I would that I had the ability to fade into the background. You never see the pictures on the wall suffering from interactions gone wrong.
Im getting a puppy after my training is finished. I want a friend that will always be there and will always listen without judgement. I was a fool as a kid for hating dogs.